MelonYellow's Journal

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I think I'm dumb, or maybe just happy

Bwahaha! I found a way to get around the block my school's computers had on Diaryland. Apparently they're too stupid to block any other pages than the Diaryland home page. I am an evil genius.

I'm in Webpage Design right now. I designed a nifty little home page for my Inu Yasha site. Cower before my geekdom.

Not much has been happening lately. School is boring, and I'm back to not applying myself (I don't think I ever started to apply myself, really). My family is fighting constantly, I think because they've been cooped up inside all winter. I'll be glad when March comes. Unless it's still cold. Then I'll be glad when April comes.

Valentine's Day is coming up. I have to think of some great Anti-Valentine's Day idea. Because I really hate that holiday. It just makes everybody miserable; the guys stress out about something romantic to do for their girlfriends, the girls are disappointed with what their boyfriends have chosen, and the single people are either lonely or bitter. Guess which one I am?* ^_^

AH's birthday is coming up, too. She's not having her party at a hotel because her parents won't pay for it, and she doesn't want to spend too much money. Instead we're going to some Italian restaurant... and then doing something else. I don't know. All I know is that since there is no hotel party, JBeg can't come, which is okay, I think, because he fucking called me stupid. Maybe he was joking. I don't know.

I have seminar next. Woo. I probably ought to find someone who'll be willing to let me copy their chemistry homework. Because I'm pretty sure I'm failing. I don't fucking care.

Anyway, the bell will be ringing in a few minutes, and I don't want to be late to my routine loitering in the junior hallway. It's funny, I don't talk to anyone during nutrition break anymore since BC left. NS's always busy talking to some "badass" about getting stoned, and AH's... AH. I don't know. She doesn't seem to want to talk to me a whole lot. So I sit and read or play Gameboy, and drink Pepsi. Woo.

*If you guessed bitter, you guessed correctly!

9:02 a.m. - 2004-01-26

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I'm sorry that I hit you, but my string snapped.

WARNING:

If you're a guy (Patch), skip this. Trust me, you don't want to know.

Today was not a good day. Not at first, anyway. During Webpage Design, I got my period. Hooray for blood.

So then in Seminar (study hall) I had the most hateful cramps I've ever experienced. My left leg hurt so much, I thought I was going to cry. It was all I could think about. So in English/History, I bummed some Midol off of NS. I was in so much pain my hands were shaking when I opened the bottle. Then I went to the nurse's office to lie down for awhile, and LG showed up, and asked what I was in there for, and I said, "My uterus hurts."

So I think LG got a few minutes of sleep, but I just lay there and cried (a little), silently, of course. I wouldn't want LG to hear. I don't like people to know I'm crying. But anyway, after about thirty minutes the nurse made us go back to class. By that time, there were only about thirty minutes until lunch, which was a nice break, if you don't count Justin/Chris pestering us.

Then there was Chemistry. Miss L had been on hold with her cell phone company for an hour and thirty minutes. She had it on speaker phone, so every once in awhile, a recording would inform us that her call was important to them, thank her for remaining patient while they assisted other customers. Finally an actual voice answered, and she let us all go get a drink. When we came back, she was on hold again.

But! When I got home I watched some pretty good porn, and I had a really nice orgasm. ^_^ So today wasn't all bad.

But yeah, I've been feeling like crap all day. It doesn't help to know that my next period will probably be during AH's birthday party. The one JBeg's supposed to come to, if it's at a hotel. So basically he'll come all the way over here to be annoyed by me and my friends, and I will get no lovin'. Plus, she wants to have it at a hotel with an indoor pool. So I have to worry about my tampon string showing. And I will get no lovin'. Goddamnit, I want some lovin'!

This is a long entry. I'm good at complaining. Hooray for self-pity. Thank you, I'll be here all week.

Ahahahaha it's a joke. About menstruation.

I want a fucking hysterectomy.

9:21 p.m. - 2004-01-15

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Sometimes I resent making friends and acquaintances

It's been awhile, hasn't it? I've been too busy pretending to be busy lately. And pretending I make sense.

I got a digital camera. So maybe I'll put up some pictures. Of my cat.

Speaking of my cat, she just got fixed. I feel so awful for her. She's still really wiped out. She's been curled up in a little ball on the couch for hours now.

I am lonely. Or something. Not so much anymore, but I was earlier. I was supposed to get together with AS and HBrat, and maybe NS today. Nobody has contacted me, and when I tried to call AH's house, the answering machine came on and it was for some office... which leads me to believe that AH's home number has changed, and she never told me. I called NS, but she wasn't home, probably out with DM. I tried AH's cell and she didn't answer.

I wouldn't even care, if they'd just give me the goddamn courtesy of calling and cancelling. I always have to call and find out from them, they never call me. Which is, in my opinion, very rude.

My mom says things would be better if I had my driver's license. Yeah, then I'd just be driving around by myself. But she says if I could drive, I'd have a job, and make new friends there, because according to her, I'm good with people when it's just one on one. Ha. No I'm not, it's just a bunch of awkward silences mixed with me trying to break the ice, and failing.

My dad's home. Splendid.

Time to go play Nintendo.

4:47 p.m. - 2004-01-10

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I hardly exist at all.

So today was the last day of school before winter break. I had an entire page left on my trig final when the bell rang. So I'll have my bad trig grade to look forward to when I get back to school in January. ^_^ Hooray for that.

We had a half day, and my sisters were supposed to go to my grandparents' house, so I was to have the house to myself for several hours. This was not the case. I had the house to myself for about an hour. Apparently my great grandma is having severe back pain. So my plans of relaxation are foiled. Oh well. At least I get to do something with AH tonight. And possibly NS. Or hey, maybe that'll get cancelled too. Whatever. No more school.

12:41 p.m. - 2003-12-19

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