melonyellow's Diaryland Diary

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2015-07-27 - Keep going...
2015-06-25 - Resurfacing
2015-06-24 - Ugh.
2015-06-02 - Deer, rain, and room mate drama
2015-05-06 - Hey did you know I have low self esteem, I never write about it or anything.
2015-05-01 - Fuck you, Dr. Asshole.
2015-04-11 - Handling it
2015-01-27 - SO ADULT, EVERYONE.
2015-01-21 - Bad at life
2015-01-20 - Car accident, weird BK news, JK is still wonderful.
2015-01-14 - Quitting ALLLLL the drugs
2015-01-08 - I am obsessed with having problems.
2014-12-31 - Ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff
2014-12-22 - What I am doing instead of going to bed
2014-12-17 - ANS Scolds Herself #374
2014-12-17 - Eating peanut butter out of the jar with a fork.
2014-12-12 - Be! Depressive! B-E Depressive! B-E, D-E-P-R-E-S-S-I-V-E!
2014-12-09 - I heard waves
2014-11-19 - Fuck chores, knit more.
2014-11-10 - I forgot how to adult again.
2014-10-27 - Yay, I'm fat again
2014-09-27 - Bike rides, drinkin'.
2014-09-15 - Eh.
2014-09-07 - BK sighting
2014-09-01 - Update - day 5
2014-08-29 - Day 2 of Brain Repair
2014-08-28 - Today I join the medicated masses.
2014-08-08 - Horrible films about horrible people who remind me of myself.
2014-08-05 - So sane.
2014-07-29 - Guess who's not packing right now?
2014-07-26 - Old notes
2014-07-24 - Suicidal ideation
2014-07-21 - Playing house
2014-07-15 - How to be a person
2014-07-15 - Who died and made you king of anything?
2014-07-03 - "Crazy bitches"
2014-06-27 - Hey.
2014-06-25 - ..
2014-06-22 - Kind of shitty
2014-06-22 - .
2014-06-03 - .
2014-04-24 - -
2014-04-21 - On needing people
2014-04-03 - Here we go again with the L word.
2014-03-10 - JK
2014-02-13 - Yes.
2014-02-10 - Daaaaaaate
2014-02-10 - JK
2014-02-10 - Hmm.
2014-02-09 - And in this moment, I am happy.
2014-02-06 - Abort mission
2014-02-04 - Life lessons from Helen Keller.
2014-02-01 - Mom
2014-01-31 - An episode
2014-01-31 - MS
2014-01-28 - Me, me, me
2014-01-27 - "Forgetting"
2014-01-27 - Lost
2014-01-20 - .
2014-01-18 - Interested? Interesting...
2014-01-17 - HL.
2014-01-16 - AJ
2014-01-14 - -
2014-01-11 - .
2014-01-10 - Magnetic poetry: On loss
2014-01-09 - Yeah, I said it.
2014-01-08 - Fuckles.
2014-01-08 - Admonishments
2014-01-05 - Interesting new developments.
2014-01-04 - Uuugggghhhh.
2014-01-02 - God, really?
2014-01-02 - Ummmm, no.
2014-01-02 - Ugh.
2014-01-02 - Hmm.
2014-01-01 - Fuck you, 2013.
2013-12-30 - .
2013-12-21 - Tonight
2013-12-19 - Inappropriate
2013-11-10 - Blugh.
2013-10-14 - In over my head again and again
2013-09-04 - Girls, music
2013-08-25 - Drunken gossip
2013-08-13 - Boy crazy
2013-06-26 - Finally happened.
2013-01-20 - .
2012-12-31 - Ugh.
2012-12-18 - Shit.
2012-11-08 - Update November 2012
2012-02-22 - Updates, blah, blah
2011-12-15 - Grandma V
2011-11-06 - Update November 2011
2011-07-18 - This week's installment of insane neighbor drama
2011-07-09 - DIY haircut, insane neighbor drama
2011-06-25 - Crap, it's June.
2011-04-19 - Stagnating
2011-01-18 - More weight
2011-01-09 - How to trick hot women into having sex with you
2010-12-12 - I am getting pretty sick of this.
2010-12-09 - PMDD
2010-12-03 - It's not that I'm lazy, it's that I just don't care.
2010-11-29 - Seasonal pessimissm
2010-11-21 - Weird day
2010-11-20 - Mope, mope, mope
2010-11-19 - Blah, blah, boring updates
2010-11-18 - Friends
2010-11-06 - ...
2010-10-29 - Fucking fuck y'all
2010-10-10 - Losing patience
2010-10-09 - No life
2010-10-05 - Pain and sympathy
2010-10-05 - Unsatisfied
2010-10-01 - Drained
2010-09-03 - Eh
2010-08-18 - Why BK is so much smarter than you
2010-08-02 - Proud to be a Negative Nancy
2010-07-15 - .
2010-07-13 - Paralyzed
2010-07-09 - ...
2010-06-04 - Self-inflicted revenge
2010-06-03 - Fighting
2010-05-25 - Math problems
2010-05-23 - Oh my god.
2010-05-21 - BK is AWOL
2010-05-20 - YAY
2010-05-20 - New apartment! (hopefully?)
2010-05-17 - I think I broke a blood vessel
2010-05-17 - Bitter tonight
2010-05-16 - Ear twitch
2010-05-15 - Moving, relationships, and therapy
2010-04-25 - A weird dream
2010-03-26 - Ashamed of feeling proud
2010-03-19 - I submitted this to Dealbreaker
2010-03-18 - Why I am so batshit crazy
2010-02-22 - My weird coworker
2010-02-12 - Days of Our Shrieking Neighbors' Lives
2009-12-15 - I don't understand my emotions.
2009-11-20 - Hello again.
2009-05-22 - Late night anxiety
2009-05-21 - Why does everyone want to fuck me over?
2009-05-12 - Things that make me happy
2009-04-20 - Happy holidays
2009-04-16 - Decreased quality of life
2009-03-27 - They are all cattle.
2009-03-23 - Frustrated
2009-03-17 - -
2009-03-16 - Damn it.
2009-03-14 - Trapped
2009-03-09 - Shut-in
2009-03-06 - Willpower
2009-03-04 - Will finish this entry later?
2009-02-23 - So paranoid that I don't even trust myself.
2009-02-20 - Fuck.
2009-02-19 - Rage
2009-02-18 - Lonely as usual
2009-02-17 - Can't sleep
2009-02-04 - Breakthrough?
2009-01-26 - I HATE MY BODY!!
2009-01-24 - Good feelings for once
2009-01-22 - I almost got into a car accident today.
2009-01-17 - He scares me sometimes.
2009-01-11 - About love
2009-01-03 - Fuck this day.
2009-01-02 - So much for my good mood.
2008-12-31 - I've come to hate my body and all that it requires
2008-12-28 - Shut-in
2008-12-18 - I hate this self-obsessed culture.
2008-12-16 - Hmm
2008-12-10 - Fucked up dreams
2008-12-09 - Fuck
2008-12-03 - What the fuck.
2008-12-02 - God I hate December
2008-11-12 - I think of you all day long
2008-10-30 - The L-word?
2008-10-22 - Wasted away again in margaritaville
2008-10-17 - What's the point?
2008-10-11 - WOOOOOOOOOOO.
2008-10-10 - Bleh
2008-10-09 - Stressed out
2008-09-20 - Holy shit I did not disappear.
2008-06-28 - Sleep paralysis
2008-06-25 - WOOOOOO.
2008-06-22 - Something interesting happened
2008-06-21 - FUCK.
2008-06-19 - Stressed out
2008-06-18 - ...
2008-06-12 - Tonight
2008-06-11 - Doing better
2008-06-05 - Kansas sucks.
2008-06-02 - Confession
2008-06-01 - This weekend
2008-05-29 - Lame
2008-05-27 - Nervous
2008-05-26 - Man I need some sleep.
2008-05-22 - ...
2008-05-20 - Fuck you, PMS.
2008-05-19 - ...
2008-05-19 - Ridiculous weekend
2008-05-10 - I unlocked the diary again.
2008-05-10 - Nightmares
2008-05-03 - This will be a long entry.
2008-04-18 - Quitting?
2008-04-13 - My birthday
2008-04-07 - Party pooper
2008-04-02 - You don't trust anyone 'cause you're untrustable
2008-03-31 - My nose hurts!
2008-03-27 - I hate myself for hating myself.
2008-03-26 - Tired
2008-03-22 - Boooooored.
2008-03-12 - -
2008-03-03 - ...
2008-02-23 - Therapy
2008-02-18 - The past and the future
2008-02-16 - Lonely
2008-02-15 - Dang.
2008-02-14 - Confused
2008-02-08 - Lesson learned
2008-02-03 - Sick
2008-01-26 - I suck.
2008-01-26 - Things have never been so swell
2008-01-21 - I am not proud of myself tonight.
2008-01-18 - Food issues
2008-01-18 - It was a rock lobster
2008-01-06 - Fuck you, 2007.
2007-12-09 - Things have been going well.
2007-12-02 - Meh.
2007-11-29 - Dreams?
2007-11-22 - Tonight was awesome.
2007-11-21 - Tonight should be interesting.
2007-11-11 - My weekend got better
2007-11-10 - Sueisfine
2007-11-09 - Interesting developments in my love life
2007-10-29 - Crap.
2007-10-18 - I don't know
2007-10-12 - Fool me twice, shame on me
2007-10-09 - God damn it.
2007-10-08 - My dad
2007-10-01 - Still sick.
2007-09-30 - Uuuuugh.
2007-09-28 - Ugh.
2007-09-27 - Shit
2007-09-26 - :)
2007-09-24 - Space cadet
2007-09-22 - My brain is all fuzzy
2007-09-18 - Reaching out
2007-09-18 - I think I might be crazy?
2007-09-17 - Contradicting myself.
2007-09-16 - I don't know
2007-09-13 - Shit.
2007-09-09 - I hate today.
2007-09-07 - Tonight
2007-09-02 - Funny story
2007-09-02 - About the party
2007-09-01 - Whatever
2007-08-30 - Welcome back, PMS
2007-08-28 - Music that I like that you should like too
2007-08-28 - Damn.
2007-08-27 - I can't get enough
2007-08-26 - About last night
2007-08-25 - Holy crap.
2007-08-20 - Hmm.
2007-08-18 - What a night this has been.
2007-08-18 - A good day
2007-08-17 - Smitten (Again)
2007-08-14 - OCD?
2007-08-12 - Not the same anymore?
2007-08-08 - Appearance issues
2007-07-25 - Last night
2007-07-24 - It's called freedom of speech.
2007-07-24 - What the fuck.
2007-07-23 - Tired
2007-07-20 - Anxious tonight
2007-07-17 - I can't stop tearing the skin off my lips
2007-07-14 - Imaginary friends
2007-07-05 - Pretend relationship
2007-06-19 - Good thing I'm not very impulsive.
2007-06-18 - (No title) Last post from the blogger account
2007-06-16 - I don't even know.
2007-06-13 - Cooped up and pent up
2007-06-12 - 1-800-SUICIDE
2007-06-09 - What the fuck?
2007-06-04 - To Do list
2007-05-19 - (No title)
2007-05-18 - PMS again.
2007-04-29 - (No title)
2007-04-29 - (No title)
2007-04-28 - (No title)
2007-04-26 - It's never going to stop.
2007-04-18 - (No title)
2007-03-20 - (No title)
2007-02-13 - (No title)
2007-02-02 - (No title)
2007-01-29 - (No title)
2007-01-12 - (No title)
2007-01-10 - (No title)
2007-01-10 - What the fuck is wrong with everyone
2006-12-30 - (No title)
2006-12-24 - (No title)
2006-12-24 - (No title)
2006-12-23 - (No title)
2006-12-23 - I wish you would step back from that ledge
2006-12-15 - (No title)
2006-12-13 - (No title)
2006-12-11 - (No title)
2006-12-10 - (No title)
2006-12-09 - (No title)
2006-12-05 - (No title)
2006-12-03 - (No title)
2006-12-01 - (No title)
2006-11-29 - (No title)
2006-11-27 - (No title)
2006-11-24 - (No title)
2006-11-23 - (No title)
2006-11-21 - Damn it.
2006-11-20 - (No title)
2006-11-20 - This is not good.
2006-11-20 - (No title)
2006-11-19 - (No title)
2006-11-18 - (No title)
2006-11-16 - (No title)
2006-11-15 - (No title)
2006-11-14 - (No title)
2006-11-13 - (No title)
2006-11-12 - (No title)
2006-11-10 - (No title)
2006-11-08 - (No title) First post from the old Blogger diary
2006-11-03 - Last night
2006-11-03 - Oh my god.
2006-11-02 - God damn it.
2006-11-01 - Can we show our faces now?
2006-10-31 - Vamos a jugar por la playa
2006-10-30 - I don't know.
2006-10-29 - So I went to a party tonight.
2006-10-25 - This is me.
2006-10-05 - I just can't let myself be happy.
2006-10-01 - Hooray.
2006-09-30 - All disease is mind disease
2006-08-04 - Pardon me while I burst into flames.
2006-07-25 - I think I broke my toe last night?
2006-07-10 - Survey, etc.
2006-06-19 - I want to get high.
2006-06-16 - Things I want to do.
2006-05-28 - Ridiculously long survey
2006-05-28 - Lonely
2006-05-26 - Relationship survey.
2006-05-25 - Adulthood and money
2006-05-22 - Survey, worrying, people
2006-05-19 - Freaking out, I guess
2006-05-15 - My lips are always chapped no matter what.
2006-05-07 - I guess I have a crush?
2006-05-02 - Life pretty much sucks right now.
2006-04-29 - Thinking about stuff
2006-04-18 - Stage fright
2006-04-13 - Uuuuugh.
2006-04-05 - I fill out too many of these.
2006-03-30 - If people at work knew what I did at home...
2006-03-29 - Ugh
2006-03-27 - It's so cold in Alaska
2006-03-22 - My feet have pins and needles.
2006-03-16 - Uuuugh.
2006-03-11 - Fuck the beautiful people.
2006-03-04 - Surveys are for attention whores
2006-03-03 - Is that so much to ask?
2006-02-13 - Maybe something is wrong with me.
2006-02-02 - Dermatillomania
2006-01-24 - Some idiot made a survey.
2006-01-23 - Hey, fuck you, everybody.
2006-01-14 - My life
2006-01-06 - Hey it's 2006.
2005-12-18 - New boyfriend!
2005-11-26 - I suck.
2005-11-19 - My teeth feel weird.
2005-11-13 - Take me to the place I love
2005-11-10 - My eye hurts.
2005-11-03 - Bleh
2005-11-02 - It's no good because you're everywhere.
2005-10-31 - Fuck you, Halloween.
2005-10-29 - Hello, my name is ANS and I'm a blogwhore.
2005-10-26 - Hot lovin' in Kansas City
2005-10-23 - Fucking cheating bastard.
2005-10-22 - Bleh.
2005-10-21 - Hey, new diary. (Not really, this is the first entry from an old blog)
2005-03-27 - A very merry unbirthday to me
2005-03-08 - I tried hard to have a father but instead I had a dad
2005-02-28 - I lost the will to fight
2005-02-25 - All apologies
2005-02-24 - Vacant
2005-02-23 - Write some words, make them rhyme
2005-02-16 - How does it feel to be loved?
2005-02-14 - I got no emotions for anybody else.
2005-02-05 - Paint it black
2005-01-12 - Can you help me occupy my brain?
2004-12-23 - You're in my web now
2004-12-22 - It's the most wonderful time of the year
2004-12-18 - I could sure use a vacation...
2004-12-12 - Nothing is real but pain now
2004-12-11 - A dream for us
2004-12-08 - I don't like you, no way
2004-11-18 - I'm a negative creep
2004-10-31 - Trick or treat, the bitter and the sweet
2004-10-15 - Well, I still don't seem to care
2004-09-16 - A lot of nothing to say
2004-08-30 - Bullshit talk is just a sad excuse to make yourself feel important
2004-08-26 - No recess! No recess!
2004-08-19 - It's the pretty things that we're always breaking
2004-08-15 - Can he see or is he blind?
2004-07-31 - I lost the will to fight
2004-07-18 - I am frowning all the time
2004-07-12 - Villains always blink their eyes
2004-06-30 - Strike, dear mistress, and cure his heart
2004-06-26 - I've been picking scabs again
2004-06-25 - I could sleep for a thousand years
2004-06-23 - To see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel
2004-06-22 - Fill your head all full of lies
2004-06-18 - I'm too busy acting like I'm not naive
2004-06-10 - The more you change the less you feel
2004-06-08 - I met her at the Burger King, fell in love at the soda machine
2004-06-04 - Some people call me Maurice.
2004-06-02 - He's gone, my lover's gone and left me brokenhearted
2004-05-30 - You children of today are children of the grave
2004-05-28 - Escape from brainwashed minds
2004-05-27 - Fuck fuck fuck!
2004-05-20 - No recess
2004-05-14 - Blackened
2004-05-10 - Like a sick child
2004-05-04 - Is she weird
2004-04-26 - It is time for stormy weather
2004-04-25 - Bland boring plain
2004-04-22 - \"What a lovely day,\" says the butcher as he raises his arm.
2004-04-16 - And she would cry, \"Liar, liar!\"
2004-04-14 - The worst is over
2004-04-10 - But I deserve more than arrogance
2004-04-02 - Difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed
2004-04-01 - Butcher the song
2004-03-29 - Pretty vacant
2004-03-28 - What did he say to make you so goddamn defiant?
2004-03-22 - Give in, give in, give up
2004-03-16 - We'll live happily ever after
2004-03-13 - Girls just want to have fun
2004-02-13 - I'm a loser, baby
2004-01-26 - I think I'm dumb, or maybe just happy
2004-01-15 - I'm sorry that I hit you, but my string snapped.
2004-01-10 - Sometimes I resent making friends and acquaintances
2003-12-19 - I hardly exist at all.
2003-12-15 - I don't want to feel this overwhelming hostility.
2003-12-10 - Give me one more medicated, peaceful moment
2003-11-25 - I fell asleep on my ARM!
2003-11-22 - Icicles hung down like prison bars
2003-11-18 - Shades of red of a furious defeat
2003-11-18 - I swear I tried to care
2003-11-17 - Some things just can't be cured, or covered up
2003-11-17 - Day after bloodsucking day
2003-11-16 - Joy to the fishes in the deep blue sea
2003-11-15 - Let it burst and bloom
2003-11-14 - Who am I if I'm alone?
2003-11-14 - Sink to the beat